Trouble in Paradise

Hi Everyone

Sorry it has been so long again since posting, I continue to struggle. I do not struggle with the food or the steps but I struggle with my mind. The weekend getaway was great but great but sooner or later you still need to come home to reality. I was driving home from my great getaway and phone begins to ring. Where is this, where is that, I need this and I need that. Already before I left I seemed to have had a fragile mindset and now it didn't seem to be getting better.

I decided I needed to talk to my doctor about what has been going on about all of this. If seems I am just not myself. She and I sat down and talked. She felt there has just been so much loss lately in my life that who could be asked to cope with that in the past 90 days. I lost a baby, my job, a relationship and my comfort friend FOOD. Lots of changes and some new introductions need to be placed into my life. We decided I need to go into an Outpatient Program at the hospital to work on coping skills. Without a job to bury myself in I can go and go without thinking. Work gets out of control and I can easily grab a cupcake! When something upsetting happens and it is the weekend before I would drive through McDonald and delve into a Quarter Pounder.

So this is week three of classes. The Easter basket was here around the house and IT WAS difficult to leave it alone. I love those Cadbury Eggs but I did not touch the basket. My family even brought pizza into the house. That was a different argument all in itself. Easter Sunday everyone came over here for the traditional ham and all the fixings. Me I had turkey burgers, green beans and salad. I was so proud of ME! I am learning to cope with things without WORK and without FOOD.

No matter what it is I am learning to cope without working 900 hours and without stuffing my face with that ugly vice of FOOD.

I am really on a healthy journey and getting to the bottom of WHY we eat and why I will not go back to what I was doing before. I will be able to continue down this healthy journey!

See you next time.....